Realizing........ I AM far above rubies

Ok so i know that i'm behind! Gezz give me some slack! lol most of you that read this anyways barely ever update yourself!!!! lol jk......(but it's true!)

Two weeks ago my grandma(my mom's mom) got to come up for the week! It was exciting and very frustrating also........so many things she thinks is wrong with me!! and others of which i will not get into......But it was great to be able to see her again.
I hope she actually gets to come to graduation, the only reason she might not is because the guy she is married to may have to work. BLAG!!! Seriously.....i could careless if he came, but my grandma has to come. Now with changing the date of Graduation to June 30th, my dad's parents my not come now.. :(
Oh about graduation!!! I'm so excited!!! We're gonna have the Ceremony at my church, then have a big party! out at my house with everyone that came to the Ceremony!!! Exciting i know! We're gonna have food, games, music, volleyball!, and lastly but not lest! FIREWORKS!!! Yep i pretty much love those things!

Welp a friend of mine that i used to work with is graduating tomorrow with her homeschool co-op, and i'm gonna get to go see it and then go to her party afterwards, so i have a fun filled day tomorrow!
It's so weird being homeschooled all my life pretty much and seeing this many people i know graduating.....in my family alone there are four of us! Then i have about 10 friends grad too!

Uh so after having the job i have right now since this past Aug, i quit on Tuesday, giving them my two-weeks notice......you could prob tell from my previous post that i was a little frustrated.
I don't know what i'm going to do about another job yet. Idk even know if i'll get another one......
Partly i do need a job, because i need money for Photography school in the Fall if thats what i choose to do.

This past Sunday i put this color stuff on my hair, it's not permanent mind you...it will gradually wash out over the next several weeks. A few years ago i begged my mom to let me get highlights and she finally let me....but after spending lots of money over these few years and seeing that i was wasting so much money that i could be using some where else i decided i wouldn't highlight it anymore....so it's been growning off for the last several months. And those of you that are around me know it's sorta obvious! lol and i really wanted my hair all one color for Prom and Graduation! SO back to what i was saying.....lol......i put this stuff on it and it really looks like my natural hair color!!! I'm so Happy!

But the real point i was trying to get at........Tera had asked me the other night about it and
I said....."that i didn't know how much i was gonna miss my natural hair color."

She replyed "Interesting how we always seem to desire what is not ours and when we get it we realize that what we had was the best for us, huh?"

And i said "Yes i totally agree!!! It's weird cause i always grew up the "ugly duckling", being completely different from all the other girls....i never thought i was pretty enough, no guy ever liked me, and so on......and even a little later on in my life did i keep that thinking....BUT now I see that i am beautiful completely and wholly in the Lord's eyes....and it's ok if i'm not pretty to the world......cause thats not who i answer too."

Her reply: "That is a wonderful revelation Jessica, and one that most of us women need to learn. I am reminded of the verse in Proverbs...Favor is deceitful and beauty is vain, but a woman that fears the Lord she shall be praised. And the guy thing...you only want ONE guy to "like" you ultimately...and that in God's timing!"

My reply: "I love that whole passage! It's amazing to think that I am far above Rubies! That means that i am worth more then there is in this world or what it has to offer! And it tells me how much my Heavenly father loves me.
But yes i know now after everything is said and done, even though i've said it before, this time i really with my whole heart mean that i am waiting for the "one"."

Proverbs 31:10-31
10 "A worthy woman who can find? For her price is far above rubies.
11 The heart of her husband trusteth in her, And he shall have no lack of gain.
12 She doeth him good and not evil All the days of her life.
13 She seeketh wool and flax, And worketh willingly with her hands.
14 She is like the merchant-ships; She bringeth her bread from afar.
15 She riseth also while it is yet night, And giveth food to her household, And their task to her maidens.
16 She considereth a field, and buyeth it; With the fruit of her hands she planteth a vineyard.
17 She girdeth her loins with strength, And maketh strong her arms.
18 She perceiveth that her merchandise is profitable: Her lamp goeth not out by night.
19 She layeth her hands to the distaff, And her hands hold the spindle.
20 She stretcheth out her hand to the poor; Yea, she reacheth forth her hands to the needy.
21 She is not afraid of the snow for her household; For all her household are clothed with scarlet.
22 She maketh for herself carpets of tapestry; Her clothing is fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is known in the gates, When he sitteth among the elders of the land.
24 She maketh linen garments and selleth them, And delivereth girdles unto the merchant.
25 Strength and dignity are her clothing; And she laugheth at the time to come.
26 She openeth her mouth with wisdom; And the law of kindness is on her tongue.
27 She looketh well to the ways of her household, And eateth not the bread of idleness.
28 Her children rise up, and call her blessed; Her husband also, and he praiseth her, saying:
29 Many daughters have done worthily, But thou excellest them all.
30 Grace is deceitful, and beauty is vain; But a woman that feareth Jehovah, she shall be praised.
31 Give her of the fruit of her hands; And let her works praise her in the gates."